Your Grace is Enough 2

I found myself offended again. I was hurt deeply and  know that this will take its time to heal as all painful things do. I can find myself having mixed emotions about it and wondering if I can build trust again. Its easy to focus on the pain and point out how much people have hurt me. Its easy to point the finger and say, "I would never do that!" But would I? In all reality I have the capacity to do the same or worse because I'm human. I desire to be quick to forgive, and I believe I am, its just thinking through things and not with my emotions or self righteousness can be a struggle. God's really been showing me my own sin about the whole situation so much that I often find myself being humbled, praying, and even crying. Today I was worshipping on the piano and the quote below sank in so deep as I sang it. I began to cry as I sang it over and over and over. NOTHING in me is pure and still He has washed me. Once again, I cannot withhold grace from others because it is withholding from them the grace Christ gave us through His death and resurrection.

Learning how depraved I am and my position before Christ has caused me to want to give that grace and mercy to others. It's not easy when they have hurt you, but love keeps no record of wrongs, is not resentful, endures and bears all things. Help me give this Lord. Walk alongside me on this journey to love genuinely as you have called me to. Keep me humble & help me to oppose the pride within.

"Only you are good. Only I am filthy. Nothing in me is pure and still you have washed me."

-To Hear Him Sing-